A Different Blue(11)

“In early versions of Greek myth, harpies were described as lovely-haired creatures, as

beautiful women with wings. That changed over time, and in Roman mythology they were described

as hideous-faced beasts with talons and even beaks. Hideous, nasty, bird-women. That image has

persisted over time. Dante described the seventh hell in his Inferno as a place where harpies

lived in the woods and tormented those who were sent there.” Wilson started reciting the poem,

apparently from memory.



“Here the repellent harpies make their nests,

Who drove the Trojans from the Strophades

With dire announcements of the coming woe.

They have broad wings, a human neck and face,

Clawed feet and swollen, feathered bellies; they caw

Their lamentations in the eerie trees.”



“You have that lovely poem memorized, I see,” I said sarcastically, although I was mostly

dumbfounded. Wilson burst out laughing, his serious face transformed by the action. I even

cracked a smile. At least the guy could laugh at himself. Wow! Talk about a NERD. Who quoted

Dante at will? And with that stuffy British accent I was sure he was going to say, “It's

elementary, Miss Echohawk,” every time I asked him a question. He was still smiling when he

continued.

“To answer your question, Miss Echohawk, what we believe affects our world in a very real way.

What we believe affects our choices, our actions, and subsequently, our lives. The Greeks

believed in their gods, and this belief affected everything else. History is written according

to what men believe, whether or not it's true. As the writer of your own history, what you

believe influences the paths you take. Do you believe in something that may be a myth? I'm not

talking about religious beliefs, per se. I'm talking about things you've told yourself, or

things you've been told for so long that you just assume that they are true.”

Mr. Wilson turned and picked up a stack of papers. He started passing them out as he talked.

“I want you to think about this. What if what you believe about yourself or about your life is

simply a myth that is holding you back?”

Mr. Wilson set a wrinkled sheet of paper on my desk and moved on without comment. It was my

personal history. The history I'd thrown toward the garbage can the first day of school. It had

been pressed and smoothed, but it bore the signs of having been discarded. It would never be the

same. No amount of pressing and smoothing would ever disguise the fact that it had been rescued

from the trash.

"Once upon a time . . . there was a little blackbird, pushed from the nest. Unwanted."

I added a word. Discarded. I read it to myself.

"Once upon a time . . . there was a little blackbird, pushed from the nest. Unwanted. Discarded.

”

Just like trash. And no amount of pretending I wasn't trash would make me something else. Girls

like me deserve their reputations. I cultivated mine. I suppose I could blame my upbringing, but

it wasn't in me to make excuses for myself. I like boys and boys like me. Or at least they like

the way I look. I guess it would be a lie to say they like me, the me I keep to myself. They

don't know that girl. But that's part of the allure. I cultivated my look, too. I had sexy hair,

and I always wore my jeans too tight and my shirts snug and my eye makeup thick. And when I was