First Down (Beyond the Play, #1)(4)
She rolls her eyes. “Just try it on. It’ll look gorgeous on you and make your tits look fabulous. All the boys will drool over you.”
I take the dress, knowing from experience that she won’t drop it until I at least try it on. I have a different white dress in my closet that will have to do for this party. “And why do I want that?”
“Because you need to show everyone you’ve moved on from Darryl! It’s perfect. Find some sexy guy to grind up against! Get drunk! Just try and enjoy yourself, Bex, please.”
I did tell her, during one of our many FaceTime sessions over the summer, that I wanted to try having a social life before I effectively shut that down by moving back home. I don’t think I’m capable of having a boyfriend again, but she’s right, I could try to hook up with someone. It’s been a long, lonely summer. I got plenty sweaty, but never for fun reasons.
I’ve never been a hookup sort of person, but there’s a first time for everything, right?
“I’ll try it on,” I say as I stand.
She squeals, clapping her hands together.
“But I’m not promising I’m wearing it. Or that I’m going to the party.”
She just smiles serenely. “Don’t forget the halo.”
As I shimmy into the dress in my room—and Laura was totally right, my boobs look amazing—I can’t push away the part of me, however petty, that hopes Darryl is there tonight. Maybe Laura’s right. If he sees me dancing with someone else, he’ll get the message that we’re over. It’s not like anything else I’ve done has worked, even though he’s the one who cheated.
As if on cue, my phone screen lights up. Darryl again. I can’t believe that at one point in time I thought this was sweet. Supportive.
Now he makes me want to claw my hair out.
You’re coming tonight, right? I miss my angel.
For some reason, the most annoying part about the message is the way he knows I’m dressing up as an angel. I’ll never be the devil, and maybe that’s part of the problem. He doesn’t believe we’re truly over because he’s used to getting exactly what he wants and I’m not forceful enough to get it through his thick skull that we’re not a couple anymore. Just because he’s an arrogant football player who believes he’s going to marry his college girlfriend and have her follow him around his whole career like half the men in the NFL…
I put on the wings, looking at myself in the mirror over my bedroom door with a frown. They look ridiculous, big and fluffy and not something I’d normally want to wear in front of other people. I grab the halo and put it on too. Somehow, it ties everything together. With some winged eyeliner and matte lipstick for edge?
Darryl will be drawn to me like a moth to a lantern. But hopefully other guys will too.
3
JAMES
I tug at my collar as I follow my brothers up the drive to the frat house. Every lamp in the house must be on because light is spilling out like a jack-o-lantern, and I swear I can feel the bass of the music under my feet. As Cooper puts his hand on the door handle, about to pull it open, I stop him. I take a deep breath as I continue to adjust my collar.
I’ve had a lot of teammates over the years. It’s important to start off on the right foot, especially with the leaders of each group of players. I met most of them through the minicamp earlier this month, but that was formal. Work. They all knew where I came from and what I’ve accomplished, so we put our heads down and got started on season prep. But a social situation like this? That matters more. They might follow my calls on the field because they want to play a good game of football, but for me to actually get to know them and earn their trust, we have to connect socially. I have to get to know each of them, both as individuals and in connection to the team. What are they studying? Who’s going to join me in the league next season and who has other post-graduation plans? Who’s a rookie, who’s coming off an injury, who has a partner I need to remember the name of? I know I can prove myself to them on the field, I’ve been doing that my entire life, but this is a make-or-break moment. I don’t do many parties during the season, so this is it.
And right now, I feel like an ass in my suit.
“We look like a couple of mafia dons,” I say. “Are you sure this is the theme?”
If I go in there in a black suit with a black silk button-down, the top buttons undone and my hair slicked back, and everyone else is in shorts and t-shirts, I will murder my brother. He even convinced me to wear the gold chain I usually only bring out for special occasions. The one consolation I have is that he looks just as ridiculous.
Coop runs his hand through his hair and hits me with a grin. I have no idea how he manages that shaggy mess. He uses his status as McKee’s star defenseman to get away with pretty much everything. “You look good, I promise. What’s more devilish than a bunch of hitmen for the mob?”
“He’s not lying,” Seb says as he adjusts the heavy watch on his wrist. That clunker looks straight out of the 80s. “It is themed, like every other party this frat throws. It’s mostly to get the girls to dress as skimpily as possible.”
Coop claps Seb on the back. “And I for one am ready for some eye candy. Can we go in? Or do you need another moment to angst?”